Dead weight

I always seem to make the same mistakes,

The kinds that are hard to fix, I start to feel the weight

I think I saw you grow up on the wrong side of the fence

Child best-friends but now you have a sense

that only pretty kids and happy kids

get to be in your bubble

I want you to say I’m here for you

But though you make it seem subtle

it feels like a shock wave, cast me in a grey hue

How would it feel to be walked all over?

Well now I know

I don’t think you can sink any lower

These seeds you sow

Have inflicted irreversible pain

And now I’m carrying around my body of clay

I’m carrying around my own dead weight.